May 27th, 2007
|10:26 am - Congrats: you're a spoiled brat.|
I abandoned dedication to updating this LiveJournal due to the fact that all of a sudden it felt pretentious. Why the hell was I so pompous as to think that people actually gave a damn what I thought? It makes me cringe to read all of the entries from my Awkward Years, or even the entries from just a few months ago. But it seems that I just can’t help but make a fool of myself, so here I am again.
I was wrong about love, by the way. It isn’t little. It’s enormous. And it’s very consistent. It’s like even when I’m ed off, I’m still happy. Which doesn’t make any sense at all, I know. But there you have it.
School is done for the semester. Thank goodness. I hate school. I mean: I genuinely HATE school. Just writing about it makes me feel a tad sick.
I got two A+’s, four B+’s, and an unknown grade in Algebra II. Acceptable. I’m kind of proud, I guess.
Nope. I take that back. I’m not proud. Anyone could have done that.
I can’t stand Academics (as in the people, not the schoolwork). It’s like they feel their somehow more intelligent than everyone else simply because they’ve mastered the incredibly complex concepts of Memorization and Rule Following.
And what’s more: a scarily (but not coincidentally) large portion of Good Students (I’ve been playing with capitalization lately, have you noticed?) have moderately wealthy, college-educated parents. Huh.
NO YOU GOT A 2150 ON YOUR SAT, YOU HAVE A STACK OF EXSPENSIVE SAT PREP BOOKS AND A $150 PREP COURSE AT YOUR DISPOSAL.
I mean, should you really feel proud of yourself for making an A in Italian when you’ve had a private tutor for the past four years? Should you really pat yourself on the back for getting into college when your parents have been tailoring your education since middle school and holding your hand throughout the entire application process?
For god’s sake: HOW COULD YOU NOT DO WELL IN SCHOOL?
And yes: some incredibly well-off students do not do so hot it school. Those aren’t the kids I’m talking about. Obviously.
The kids I’m talking about think that it is completely necessary to say that they are taking “HONORS Chemistry,” rather than just “Chemistry,” and “AP U.S. History,” rather than just, “U.S. History.” And believe me: there’s really not that big a difference.
I’m just so fed up with snobs. The southern expression, “she thinks her don’t stink” comes to mind when I think about the social circle I’ve been a part of my entire life.
I guess it’s my anti-academic, not-wealthy boyfriend that sort of opened my eyes to all of this. And I am so ashamed of the fact that I am one of Them. I am a snob. And I’m not going to stop being a Good Student. But I am going to try to be less haughty about it.
It is possible to compromise.
I am not wealthy, but neither am I anti-academic. My SAT prep course? One SAT prep book with several of the practice tests torn out, bought off of eBay, and one similar ACT prep book. I took the SAT once and the ACT twice (totally ignored my SAT score). Did all my own applications to college with no hand-holding from my parents, except when I needed their signature on things as Principals of the School. Got into the one I wanted, which was neither uber-competitive nor very big, nor famous in any degree. Never had a private tutor; never did AP classes (the closest I got was one dual-enrolled class at Durham Tech my junior year); never did school in the summer.
I am somewhat academic (some academics are stark raving mad, so I hesitate to classify myself as one totally!) because I like to think, and to reason, and I love to learn and study. It has absolutely nothing to do with my SAT scores. Through high school I got A's and B's, but it was because I was interested in what I was learning. At college, I get mostly A's because I love the things I am learning about. I love to analyze literature. I love learning about geological structures. Yes, my parents will be more happy than not if my GPA is high, because I will qualify for scholarships (remember the "not wealthy" part?? Yeah, well, those scholarships are vital!). But that is not, and has never been, the most important thing. My mother is one of the most thinking people I know, and she has told me all through high school and now in college that she doesn't care what my grades are, or where I go to school, as long as I understand the things in life that are really important.
It's possible to have both worlds.
I don't have a problem with people who like to learn, or even people who do well in school. I have a problem with people who do well in school and somehow think that makes them "better" than the people who don't. Some of the smartest people I know are terrible students, and some of the dumbest people I know are excellent students. I just want people to stop using grades as a way to measure intelligence, you know?
I can somewhat see where you're coming from, but I think grades do show SOMETHING. I mean yes, people can have bad test days, and it can ruin their good grades, or they can have more street smarts as opposed to book smarts, but still--grades show something. You can be smart and not do well in school, and not doing well doesn't necessarily mean you're stupid, but I think doing well shows that you work hard or at least try (unless it's a really easy class). Grades show whether or not you have a good handle on the subject matter (again, unless it's an easy class). But, of course, this is me, and I come from a family that expects me to get good grades, and because of that, I've come to expect more of myself. I think that pressure has helped me more than it has hurt me though. I suppose it really depends on the person.
Of course grades show something about how hard of a worker you are. But only when it comes to school. What about people who work their a s s e s (cybernanny, haha) off at their jobs or for their athletics or art, but do badly in school? They're still hard workers, just in a different way. Frank works and works and works on his music every day, but didn't work himself to death when it came to academics. If someone had only looked to his grades to see how hard a worker he was, they'd have been seriously mislead.
And I don't think that doing well in school encourages original thought.
|Date:||June 5th, 2007 06:48 pm (UTC)|| |
what is cybernanny?!
It's one of the parental control things that censors.